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SPN Fanfic: Leave-taking - CaffieneKittySpace
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SPN Fanfic: Leave-taking
Title: Leave-taking
Warnings: SPOILERS FOR 4.15 Do not read this if you have not seen 4.15

Rating: GEN, PG
Word Count: 750 words
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Characters: (After cut due to spoiler)
Summary: One helped save the other, but now it's time for them to meet for the first and last time.
A/N: Just a little episode tag for 4.15. Not a happy one. I tried for happy and it just wouldn't go that way.


Characters: Pamela, Tessa, (peripherally: Sam, Dean)


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Leave-taking
by CaffieneKitty
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Pamela looked at Sam and Dean as they steeled themselves to deal with her corpse. It had taken dying to get her vision back. The exchange wasn't worth it.

The thing she'd seen in Sam was still there, harder to see when he wasn't using it. It was like a shadow that only fell on him. His eyes shifted, still processing what Pam had told him. Good.

"Pamela."

The soft voice behind her wasn't familiar, but it wasn't like she was expecting anyone else.

"What kept ya? Hot date?"

"It's time to go."

Pamela turned to face the Reaper. Smooth dark hair and a round face set on 'sad and sympathetic' that to Pam seemed about as genuine as- well, as her own had been when she did bread-and-butter seances for clients to talk to their great-uncle Phineas. Window-dressing, all part of the show. Pam snorted.

"You know what, sister? I died helping them save your ass, so shove it."

The Reaper had the decency to look down at her feet for a second before looking back up. "I appreciate your sacrifice-"

"You damn well better," Pamela snapped. She turned back to watching the Winchester boys force themselves through the motions of packing, clearing the hotel room of prints in strained silence. "Someone damn well better."

"Regardless, it's still time to go."

Pam felt a cool touch on her shoulder and shrugged away. "I told you to shove it."

The cool touch dropped off her shoulder. Pam watched Sam bustling that perky ass of his around, shadow and all, repositioning her corpse. Her body would be found as a murder victim of the poor bastard who'd been possessed. Crappy, but expedient. She wondered where the possessed guy's ghost was, but since he'd been dead when Sam- when the demon went away, his spirit must have departed long ago. One way or another.

The Reaper was waiting.

Pam turned back to the sad-faced girl. "So, I get killed helping you out, helping prevent the goddamn apocalypse and it's business as usual. I'm just another dead thing to herd?"

"In the end, why you died doesn't matter."

"Doesn't it?" Pam's voice was ice.

"It never does."

Pam laughed sourly. "Nice. Real nice."

The Reaper said nothing. Stood there looking sorrowful. Pam felt like smacking her, just to see if she'd change expression, react somehow. Say 'Thank you'. What the hell, she was dead, right? How many chances do you get to punch Death in the face?

The hotel room door opened and Pam turned to see the Winchesters, paused at the door of the room, looking back at her corpse.

Sam's jaw clenched and he said nothing, turning quickly away and leaving the room. "I'm sorry, Pam," Dean said, then followed his brother, quietly closing the door.

"Sorry ain't worth crap, Dean," Pam whispered as the door closed behind them. She sighed, deflating. Punching the Reaper wouldn't do any good either. What's done is done.

"I never asked for this. Any of this."

"Most people don't." The Reaper's voice was calm, neutral, practiced. "Everyone dies anyway. Most move on. Those that don't... well, in your line of work, you know what happens to those that don't."

"Yeah. I know." Pam looked back down at her corpse to the bloody mess on her favourite Ramones t-shirt, the one she'd started wearing more when she was blinded, running her fingers over the applique, tracing the faces of the band. She tugged on the undamaged hem of the shirt she was wearing now, knowing it had no more physical substance than she did, the touch just a memory.

Behind her the Reaper was a silent presence, still waiting.

Since last September, Pam's eyes had been burned out by an angel, she'd helped a fallen angel recover her memory, and now she'd helped rescue a Reaper from a demon plot to end the world. All signs pointed to things getting worse, much worse. And then there was Sam. Sticking around was starting to seem like a dumber idea by the second.

Damn all Winchesters anyway. She turned to face the Reaper.

"You got a name, girly? Or should I just call you George?"

The Reaper smiled. "Tessa."

"Tessa. Are you gonna feed me any bullshit about how I'm going into the light, or heading to a better place?"

Tessa smiled enigmatically. "Couldn't tell you. But I know you appreciate honesty. I won't tell you anything that I don't know for myself is true."

"No crap about loved ones waiting to meet me, no crap about getting a chance to meet Joey Ramone?"

"No crap. I promise."

"Good."

"All I know, truly, is that it's time for you to go."

Pam exhaled, long and slow, and let go of the hem of her shirt. "Okay."

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(that's all. Nothing much.)

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Current Mood: tired tired
Current Music: "Get Out Alive" ~ Three Days Grace

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Comments
heidi8 From: heidi8 Date: March 16th, 2009 11:31 am (UTC) (Link)
This was just fantastic! Terrific coda.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:43 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! :-)
pinkphoenix1985 From: pinkphoenix1985 Date: March 16th, 2009 11:45 am (UTC) (Link)
this is just amazing!
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:44 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!
brigid_tanner From: brigid_tanner Date: March 16th, 2009 12:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
Great voices for both of them. I'm going to miss Pamela.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:45 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! I've never written either of them before, so I;m glad the voices came through :-)
embroiderama From: embroiderama Date: March 16th, 2009 12:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oooh, I like it! I wanted some interaction between Pam and Tessa in the ep, and this fills that gap perfectly.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:45 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! I'm glad it worked.
irismay42 From: irismay42 Date: March 16th, 2009 12:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
Poor Pam... Why does Kripke insist on killing off the good characters?

You had her voice and Tessa's perfectly here, and I liked the way you stuck to Tessa's assertion from the episode that humans telling themselves they were going to a better place was just a lie to make them feel better.

Liked the Dead Like Me reference too - it always made sense to me in that show that the Reaper didn't necessarily know what was on the other side so couldn't offer any reassurances. I took Tessa's speech to Dean to mean the same sort of thing.

Nicely done, and I'm glad you had Pamela go into the light.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:47 am (UTC) (Link)
Poor Pam... Why does Kripke insist on killing off the good characters?

Because he's evil that way.

I'm glad the voices and characterization worked, and after all the pop culture references in the episode, I couldn't not throw in a "Dead Like Me" reference.
maimat From: maimat Date: March 16th, 2009 02:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
Great story, this episode really needed that.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:48 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! :-)
anniehow From: anniehow Date: March 16th, 2009 04:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
It was really good, very true to both characters, and to the episode as a whole. (I thought too that 'better place' is relative to 'stay here and fight the apocalypse')
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:49 am (UTC) (Link)
Very true. The world's becoming a very scary place, in series.
kimmer1227 From: kimmer1227 Date: March 16th, 2009 04:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, Pam. You are going to a better place. Filled with lots and lots of grabworthy asses. No promises on Joey Ramone.

Thanks
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:49 am (UTC) (Link)
Filled with lots and lots of grabworthy asses.

*giggles like a mad thing*
tigriswolf From: tigriswolf Date: March 16th, 2009 10:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aww, Pam.

Nicely done.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:50 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! :-)
july_july_july From: july_july_july Date: March 17th, 2009 04:11 am (UTC) (Link)
Perfect. I...am not a huge fan of Pam's, but I love Tessa, and together you make them grade-A coda.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:51 am (UTC) (Link)
I never really got too attached to Pam, and I never expected Tessa to show up again, so writing them wasn't something I ever thought of doing. I'm glad it worked.
From: (Anonymous) Date: March 17th, 2009 05:31 am (UTC) (Link)
"You got a name, girly? Or should I just call you George?"



lmao, yes that was a fantastic line there;) Going out with wit--always a good thing.

Sharon
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 17th, 2009 06:52 am (UTC) (Link)
Pam would bring the snark I think.
erinrua From: erinrua Date: March 18th, 2009 12:32 am (UTC) (Link)
Perfect. Brilliant and perfect. Pamela died a soldier's death, and she ain't happy about it, but she's a realist, withal.

Thanks for this. :-)
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 18th, 2009 05:37 am (UTC) (Link)
Pamela died a soldier's death, and she ain't happy about it, but she's a realist, withal.

Yeah. *nods*
starrylizard From: starrylizard Date: March 19th, 2009 09:43 am (UTC) (Link)
Nicely done! I'm gonna miss Pam. I was hoping we'd get more of her.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 19th, 2009 03:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
She had a lot of potential for use as a continuing character, but I was pretty sure she wasn't going to last out the season when she started. Then again, this is Supernatural; even though she's dead she might show up again somehow.
aerwynblue From: aerwynblue Date: March 25th, 2009 11:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
Heartbreaking. It's an excellent memorial to Pam.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: March 26th, 2009 05:32 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! :-)
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