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Sherlock Fanfic: Call Waiting - CaffieneKittySpace
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Sherlock Fanfic: Call Waiting
Title: Call Waiting
Fandom: Sherlock (BBC 2010)
Disclaimer: I did not originate these characters or this world.
Word Count: 300-ish
Rating/Warnings: GEN. PG-13. Angst. Depression.
A/N: Stream of consciousness thing. May be confusing. I don't know. [LJ-Only]
Summary: John doesn't wait well.

Call Waiting
by CaffieneKitty

John is waiting. He doesn't know what the news will be -- dead, alive, never found again, no closure -- doesn't know if his world will change again now, or if this will be just another blip, something to be scolded over and forgotten. It's the first time though that he's truly realised that certain news, that certain specific people no longer being alive would indeed change his life. Make it less. So much less.

The room is closing in on him as he paces its breadth. It's not a waiting room. It's not a police station. It's home, which should be safe (for values of safe including body parts and chemicals), comforting (as the ear-jangling shriek of a midnight violin), and secure (regardless of the array of weaponry that inexplicably turns up and his own abduction on his own doorstep). It isn't. Not while he's waiting. It's a prison.

"Go home," they'd said. "Nothing you can do. We'll call if there's news." He's never hated a silent phone more. He's never felt so useless and alone. He would have stayed, nothing would have made him go home, except that he knew he wasn't helping by being underfoot. Forty eight hours awake, searching, hoping. He'd staggered into one of the multitude of sergeants milling around, trying to be something he wasn't, trying to see something he couldn't, trying to help, and failing.

Go home. Sleep. Nothing you can do.

Sleep. There was a time all he could do was sleep. He felt the grey fog of worthlessness cresting in the back of his mind, ready to curl over him again, drag him under again, turn him back into the broken shade he was before his world changed. Waiting for his world to change back.

Nothing you can do. Nothing.

His mobile rang.

- - -
(that's all.)

Post A/N: Yes, it's open-ended. That's what it wanted to be.

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embroiderama From: embroiderama Date: March 31st, 2011 12:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh wow, you paint such a picture here. The first paragraph--I actually had to go away and look at twitter for a couple of minutes until I didn't want to cry anymore, gah. I want to give John a hug and hopes for good news.

Edited at 2011-03-31 12:25 pm (UTC)
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: April 1st, 2011 04:59 am (UTC) (Link)
I saw your pre-edit and I am oddly flattered by your typo. XD
ciaranbochna From: ciaranbochna Date: March 31st, 2011 09:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Fantastic! My heart rate accelerated while reading:)
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: April 1st, 2011 05:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks :-)
darthhellokitty From: darthhellokitty Date: March 31st, 2011 09:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ooooh. Angsty indeed.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: April 1st, 2011 05:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!
ginbitch From: ginbitch Date: March 31st, 2011 10:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
Gah! Lovely! Absolutely perfect.

caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: April 1st, 2011 05:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! :-)
tehomet From: tehomet Date: April 1st, 2011 10:08 am (UTC) (Link)
Very well done. And the ending is perfect IMHO.

Thanks for posting.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: April 2nd, 2011 05:41 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks for reading!
charis_kalos From: charis_kalos Date: April 3rd, 2011 07:44 am (UTC) (Link)
Agh! This is wonderfully written, but I want closure. I want Sherlock to be alright, and not quite understanding why John was so worried. I want COMFORT, dammit!

But - apart from that - great story.
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: April 4th, 2011 01:21 am (UTC) (Link)
With open-ended it's bring you own closure. And comfort.
samalander_dawn From: samalander_dawn Date: April 6th, 2011 05:27 am (UTC) (Link)
now I'm all tense.... :)

very, very evocative :)
caffienekitty From: caffienekitty Date: April 7th, 2011 02:36 am (UTC) (Link)
Um, thanks? XD
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